Your life is better

firstly, maybe you aren't interested bout my story. However, here i will tell you this.



Yesterday.. 
I went home from my school in the evening. I went home by public transportation that passed a traditional market near my school. I was day-dreaming of my self. I thought that i wanna be the person in the 1st place. I wanna be the best person, and maybe no one is better than me. Yeah, actually it's really selfish thinking and i realize it. But, who don't wanna be the best? Everyone wants a good thing.


But then suddenly..


I saw a woman yelled.. "Sweet Corn.. Sweet Corn.. It's delicious and cheap."
The woman yelled and brought her merchandise on her head and walked. I quiet.


Krik..Krik..Krik..


Then I think..
Oh God. The woman is so poor that she has to sell sweet corn everyday. She wants to get a better life. No more than it. She has some children and she will be happy if she can feed them and fulfill their daily needs. And I ? I have enough money, I can feed my self and I still have a good uniform to go to school. Why i'm so greedy.. I must be thankful to You. I must be thankful for having enough money and food for my life.
Forgive me God.




I learn something from here.
Never think that ur life is the worst. There are so many people outside who have worse life than you. So you must be thankful for what you have had.
 

HAPPY NEW YEAR

SEMUANYAAA!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR.. ^_^_^_^_^

hihihihi.. :D:D

Semoga aja di taun baru 2012 ini, 

kita bisa jadi insan yang lebih baik lagi dan lebih siap menghadapi liku kehidupan,

Maafkan juga segala kesalahan saya yang sangat berdosa ini..

wkwk, XD

hari ini juga sebenernya belum taun baru.. ><

tapi ketimbang telat ngucapinnya, ya kan?

hehe, *mulai geje*

happy holiday aja deh semuanya.. >v<

jujur nih, holidayku uda mau seminggu.. #garuk tembok

dan lagi, aku bener-bener harus punya semangat sampe taun baru, sampe akhir taun, dan sampe taun baru lagi.  Kalian juga guys, SEMANGAT.. :)ga da kata lain yg bsa aku ucapin slain semangat.

rr..



mau dikit curcol jga siihh.. 
oneday, i got a dream that he was fallen in love with another girl. hwahwa.. 

firstly, akunya juga bingung.. lolo? maksudnya apa?
tapi selain itu,ada yang lebih penting lagi.. dan sedikit nyangkut aku dan juga agak dangerous gitu..
yah semoga aja ga napa-napa..
lah, BESOKnya nih.. pas buka his fb.. hwah beneran dia uda seneng ma cewek tuh..
akakakak..
trus gue???
nangis??
Enggak lahh yaw.. gak jaman nangisin begituan.. terlalu ALAY gilaa..
jadi gue cuman buka bentar. Trus, uda gue close. 
Tapi yah gue juga gak se-FLAT gitu. Pas malem hari sebelum tidur.. seperti biasa gue insomnia dulu ceritanya.jadi pas itu gue mikir-mikir, yah mungkin mimpi gue tuh ada benernya juga. Gue mikir kalo Everything may happen. Nah, dan ini yang kejadian. ya uda . mau gue apain coba. akhirnya gue perlahan mikir kalo gue harus jadi orang yang bahagia kalo orang lain bahagia. jadi orang baik gitu ceritanye. *akakak*

yauda. gue akhirnya let him go. karna bagi gue itu bukan sesuatu yang sulit. gue bahkan uda beberapa kali ngelakuinnya. *ketauan ngenes* 
akan tetapi ni yee, yang bakalan susah itu kalo gue ketemu him. wadu. speechless abis. gue jadi kaya orang paling gak sempurna gitu di depannya. ahaha. gue mikir lagi bahwa, ' ya kalo ketemu dia adepin aje. kita harus belajar jadi orang yang mengatasi masalah, bukan menghindari masalah'. ngomong sih gampang emang. tapi gue juga ga tau ntar bakal gimana. dan sekarang, setelah gue bangun tidur ini, gue bersiap-siap jadi orang yang lebi baik dan uda ga mikirin begituan lagi. gue yakin Tuhan pasti tau ma jodoh kita. *cie, dalem banget*. Dan cinta itu kan juga titipan dari Tuhan. so, gue sekarang enjoy my life seperti biasanya.. 

Hahahahahaha.. ^v^
*ngakak dewa*

Loh yaaahhh.. TT

You look so far from me. FAAARR AWAY. :(
  In fact i'm hesitate w/ my feeling. Maybe i like you, but maybe i don't. I don't know how it can be like that. I feel that i'm nothing compare to you. Just like 'Swan Lake' story. But it's more pathetic. I'm not perfect at all, i feel so small with you. It makes me afraid of having feeling like this. I ever try to know you, make a conversation with you. But then i'm afraid, i'm so afraid that i never be brave to talk with you. Now i try to forget it, my feeling. Coz i know that it's impossible for me to make a relationship with youm even just a friend. I'm not appropriate with you, ain't?

Sometimes it's hard for me to know how my characteristic is. Sometimes i think that i'm not like others, i mean that hey! they are so kind that all people like them and comfortable with them. But me? I'm occasionally not confidence and not so kind like them. Then i think that i should do these and those. I hope that i can be comfortable with anybody. I hope that i can be the best person and a good girl. N' maybe someday, we can see each other when we are grown up.-__-

Temenan aku TeTe ngene iki.

Ngerasa aku ga' ada apa-apanya ketimbang kamu yang JUUUAAAUUUUHH lebih baik daripada aku.  

Sebenere aku yo gak ngerti opo'o kok bisa seneng sama kamu. Apa karena aku sendiri atw gimana? Tapi, after time goes on, ternyata aku tahu kalo aku bener-bener NOTHING dibanding kamu. Down aku. Bahkan aku lo gak pantes sama sekali buat kamu. Mendingan i should erase this feeling, shouldn't i?

*Jalan sambil pasrah dan nunduk*
#Pergi deh. 

Ini nih lanjutannya

Kenapa ya, tiap pengen curcol di blog, semuanya ilang. Udah ga tau apa yang mau ditulis. Padahal, coba kalo pagi buta ato siang bolong (emang siang pernah bolong?) pasti uda banyak banget rasanya yang mau disampein. Jiah.
Ya udahlah, kalo gini caranya, mending exit ajah.

*keluar*